The kiss...

"A man had given all other bliss, and all his worldly worth for this, to waste his whole heart in one kiss upon her perfect lips."~ Alfred Tennyson

Sensual kiss upon my lips

is worth all of my trips

soft and sweet, the wonderful taste

it is something I will never waste.

The kiss you give me is sure to tease

with time it becomes one that pleases

Your kiss is something that I need

More than one is not be greed.

Sexy, silky, spicy and slow

Sure to melt the coldest snow

Your face, your eyes, your mouth and nose

Making me forget all of my woes

Time stands still with you in my arms

I have fallen for all of your charms

Your kiss sends me to places anew

all these things I know are true.

I never imagined a kiss so fine

your lips so soft, tasting like wine

If per chance a kiss to keep

To sooth my burning soul so deep.

I'll never want for anything more

your kiss I will forever adore

the love in my heart is growing fast

making me forget the past

Today, tomorrow and well beyond

Your kiss I'll remember when I'm gone

That moment in time when you kissed me,

that moment in time when our love came to be...

A diversion - Welcome to Hell

An Inuit hunter asked the local missionary priest: "If I did not know about God and sin, would I go to hell?" "No," said the priest, "not if you did not know." "Then why," asked the Inuit earnestly, "did you tell me?" --Annie Dillard, Pilgrim at Tinker Creek

"Welcome to Hell..." she said with a smile. 

Her greeting was nice enough, albeit confusing to be sure. I smiled and shook her hand delicately, not taking her too seriously. To be honest, I wasn't sure where I was, but it seemed to be an office, and she was leading me into a board-room.  It was a large room with a very long table, and high leather-backed chairs to make it seem very official. It wasn't anything special, but it was nice enough. 

I pondered for a moment as to why, in fact, I was here. The lady, who looked very professional, smiled at me pleasantly over wire-rimmed glasses and offered me a seat. She handed me her business card and sure enough it read...

Hell Inc. 

Lucy Furr Senior Client Representative   

I sat down in one of the comfortable leather chairs and wondered what was going on. If it was some sort of practical joke, then someone was going to get some serious payback. Lucy looked very official, in her blue business suit, with a skirt that reached the knee, barely. I pondered at her card, and the logo, which seemed to glow in my hand. I felt a bit uncomfortable, so she tried her best to make me feel at ease.   "I guess you must be wondering why you are here." she said, still smiling. I said nothing in reply, nervously tapping my heel on the floor. She then produced a large leather portfolio and opened it, and then with a wave of her hand, the lights dimmed somewhat and out of nowhere a large screen appeared. It wasn't a normal screen, I could almost see right through it.   "No," she said plainly, "you are not dead... not yet anyway!" Her smile was now bordering on psychotic, and I tried very hard to ignore it. "Please watch the screen." she said.   The lights dimmed and from the middle of the screen a light appeared, and then several scenes presented themselves. Suddenly a male voice came from the screen, calling me by name.   "Welcome,  Paul." he said. "Welcome to Hell! Oh, this isn't your mom and dad's version, this is the new, state of the art, upscaled version for the new clientelle. We realised that the fire and brimstone, the tortured screaming souls image wasn't popular, wasn't attracting the right people, so we decided to change our image.... Lucy, please show Paul the first package.'   Lucy turned the portfolio to an open page and showed me something called the "Family package". It definitely had all the goods, tennis courts, golf courses, swimming pools. Almost like a time-share establishment. The mans' voice returned.   "The image upgrade had to happen. Too many good people are being conned out there today Paul. Too many good people are coming to Hell." He paused. "Let me explain it to you." he continued. "Today, more than ever before, there are more Gods out there, more people trying to get you to believe that their path is the right one, that their God is the one true God. In all of this, only one constant remains true. One thing doesn't change in all of it. Hell. If you do not pick their path, you will burn in hell. So, we end up getting people coming here, who thought they were going somewhere else, and let me clarify, if heaven was all it was cracked up to be, they'd have figured out the real path by now! "   I wondered how this had happened to me, why I was here, why I was selected to go through this process. I had never considered the nature of my faith, and it was always there, but nothing I took overly seriously. I sat back and listened further to his proposition.   "So, in order to do some eternal damage control, we have decided to start bringing people down for a chat, give them a chance to see what we have on offer here, and ultimately offer Hell as a choice for your Eternal resting place. Now, I should say, there is no knowledge of your demise here, and it would be irresponsible of me to let you in on that little secret. All we need is for you to consider our offer and sign the contract. Lucy will take over from here ok Paul? She'll answer any questions you may have!"   With that the screen disappeared and the lights came back on. Lucy pulled out a contract and laid it on the table before me. She talked about what an advantage it was, how lucky I was to be getting in on this new Hell. I looked at the piece of paper and picking up the nice pen I looked it over for a minute or so. Then, standing up I smiled and looked at her as she sat there still smiling, as if in anticipation of my acceptance. I shook my head "no" and watched her smile disappear. She quickly stood, closed her portfolio and escorted me from the board room. I awoke from the dream to a loud knocking on my front door. Struggling to get the sleep from my system, I staggered to the door, rubbing my eyes at the bright sunlight as I opened it. To my amazement, there stood Lucy smiling as large as ever.   "Oh, good morning sir..." she said bouyantly, I stood there in shock, semi-conscious of the beautiful young woman in front of me. I looked down and with an inquisitive look I asked her what she wanted.   "...do you know God sir?" she asked.            

The Great Hunter

Oh great hunter sleek and fast
Killer elite with a glorious past
Roaming free the oceans deep
Free to hunt, play and sleep

Oh great hunter you were so free
What a great and wonderful thing to be
A million years without a fear
In a tank now bring your tears

Oh great hunter, you are now the prey
If they catch you, in a tank you'll stay
A trick to jump, through the air
A soulless grin now in your stare

A fish to eat is your great reward
oh how do you keep from being bored?
They oooh and ahhh from up on high
Wings you need to really fly

They come by the thousands to see your show
Oh how little do they really know?
Your soul is gone, your will determined
convicted you are, you pay for your sins

Back to the sea, your brothers wait
Free to wonder what is your fate
They hunt and play as they always have done
Together forever under the sun

Oh great hunter you deserve to be free
Oh great hunter can you forgive me?
I never knew your broken soul
I never knew your true role.

Oh great hunter live long and proud
One day you will touch the clouds
To hunt and play and live free
Back with your brothers, back to the sea.

Be the best...

There’s a moment when you know 

That life is more than just a show 

Passion and fire fill your life 

Happiness and joy moving you from strife   

There’s a moment when everything is right 

It could be during the day or even at night 

The one moment that you’ve longed for 

The one thing that was impossible to ignore   

In your soul, you needed this more than anything 

A chance to shine, a reason to sing 

That feeling of being the best you can be 

The challenge accepted and won for all to see   

Never give up, never lose your way 

Stay focused at home, at work and at play

Growing in spirit, knowledge and love 

Be humble and give thanks to the gods above   

The challenges of life will always be there 

With all the strength and conviction you must dare 

Move mountains and reach for new heights 

Always keeping that goal in your sights   

The time is now, the day is almost here 

A bigger challenge will always be near 

Be the best you can, and let others admire 

Of a life not wasted, filled with happiness and desire   

Tomorrow will come and soon will go 

A legacy of victories for all to know 

This one chance, this one moment in time 

That mountain is really just a hill to climb   

You are amazing, you know that well 

The past is gone, there’s no need to dwell 

Move on, pick up and seek a new chance 

To walk free…to sing … to dance!  

Click...

But I don't want to go among mad people,' Alice remarked.
`Oh, you can't help that,' said the Cat: `we're all mad here. I'm mad.  You're mad.'
`How do you know I'm mad?' said Alice.
`You must be,' said the Cat, `or you wouldn't have come here.'

Click....

It's cold here...

this place, this place in my mind where I go when the world screams too much.

It's dark here. I close my eyes and let go of all my fears, all my pain.

Nothing can touch me, no one can hurt me.

I can't be deceived by beauty,

I can't be lured by temptation.

Click...

It's cold here...

I come here to be free from it all.

I come to be at peace with my demons.

Where is this place?

This place deep inside my mind where there is nothing.

Click...

It's cold here...

This place is my secret place...

my comfort zone, where only I can come...

and be alone.

I like this place.

Click... 

It's cold here...

slowly I will emerge from my dark place,

slowly I will feel the warmth of the sun on my face,

I may let go of the pain, let go of the sorrow.

I lock the door to my secret place.

Click...

I am not cold any more.

I do not seek the darkness.

but it remains, a part of me...

it's there, it always has been.

and there it will remain

until I can see your beauty once again.

Click....

the temptation of you....

he only way to get rid of a temptation is to yield to it.  ~Oscar Wilde, The Picture of Dorian Gray, 1891  


Oh my God, look what I've done... 
I've seen your rain, and felt your warm sun 
I promised I'd be safe to keep from your sin 
I can not believe the mess that I am in!   


You never knew the impact did you? 
That soft smile, the tender kiss, your endless clues 
How my life would turn over, my world would shake 
Now I have pushed the limit, raising our stake.   


Your body is so warm next to me, 
I don't ever think that I can be free 
of these feelings, this emotional rush 
the lure of your kisses so soft and so lush   


I need you now, right here without wait 
My world now is in such a wonderful state 
It's more than lust, so much more than infatuation 
I never expected you to accept my invitation...   


So here we are, just the two of us...the lights are dimmed,
the taste of your kiss, the scent of your skin 
no talk of mistrust Tomorrow will come, and we'll face the sun 
Tonight it's you and me...together as one.   


No time for questions, no need for idle talk 
the distractions, and silly thoughts will just make us walk 
Give into these feelings for just one night. 
We'll take our time and make sure that it's right.   


This desire I feel way deep down inside 
The one I am so afraid to confide 
It explodes from me, in wave after wave 
Your body, your soul, your love ... I crave.  

Where are you? I can't see you. The light is gone from my vision. Your beauty, once breathtaking, once a reason for living, is no more. You promised me you would stay, you promised never to leave me, and now, where are you? Why did you leave me? I no longer see my life with meaning, you who kissed me, you who held my soul in your soft and delicate hands, are no more.

Did I not promise to love you, hold you, cherish you? Did I not hold your hand and face the demon with you? Did you fight him with all your power? Oh God, I feel so alone. The cold bed I lay in reminds me that you are not here with me. Oh to have one more kiss, did I not tell you how much I loved you? Now there is nothing but your picture, a frozen smile, a memory of a happiness I will never know again.

I can not help this sadness. It cripples me, it takes my breath away. This pain, why did you leave this pain with me? What am I to do with it? I felt your pain. I knew what you were going through. I prayed with you that God would rescue you...no...rescue us both from this pain. Why did he say no? What did we do to deserve this? I am lost, wandering alone looking for you. Do you see me? Do you know how much I need you, how much that smile meant to me?

Another day will come, another day when I will look for you, another day when I will hear your voice calling me. I come to look for you, it's a part of my day. I bring you daisies, you loved them, they filled you with happiness, but the flowers I brought yesterday remain, and I wonder why you have not put them in that vase in the kitchen. I sit and wait for you, but you never come. Did I do something to displease you?

Oh for just one more kiss, one more caress, one more smell of that wonderful perfume that left me intoxicated for so long. Now I close my eyes and see you as I did the first time I laid eyes on you, I remember our walks on the beach, our talks just sitting alone in the car. I see you with joy and laughter, and I wonder if that I open my eyes you will magically appear, hold me and tell me that you love me, even just one more time.

I know I'm being selfish. I know I shouldn't cry, I know that you had to go, I know that it was time, but I will not stop missing you, I will not open my eyes to find you not  there, I will not  stop bringing you daisies... I will never stop loving you.